I Had To Be Removed In Order To Be Brought In!

For all you mamas reading this post, I hope you had the best weekend with your family and made to feel like the special person you are. If you aren’t a mother, I hope you were able to spend quality time with your mom or the woman most influential in your life. I can say for myself, Shaun and Landon made me feel loved and grateful.

It’s been a minute since I last posted to my blog. Honestly, I struggled with which story to share. I truly want whatever I post to give God glory rather than implying I’m special because I’m not. God is not a respecter of persons. It’s only now that I began typing that I feel a strong pull to share this one.

It was June 19, 2021 in Clearwater Beach, Florida that I got baptized for the first time. Those who know me and my love for the beach know it’s only fitting for me to be baptized in the ocean. Before that I had convinced myself that a person doesn’t need to be baptized to go to Heaven. Jesus still loves me if I’m not baptized and so on. Well, I can say from experience, once I surrendered to Jesus and allowed my old self to remain in that watery grave I have been blessed in more ways than I could ever attempt to describe.

I have always been one of those people who could never remember their dreams. If I did dream I would forget it the moment I woke up but that was rare. Imagine my surprise the morning after I was baptized I had a dream and to this day can remember it in detail. I won’t bore you with all the details. My baptism opened the door for the Holy Spirit give me gifts from God. I will share that in the dream I had been given the gift of healing and deliverance. The church I was serving at was known for healing and deliverance. I had seen a lady who couldn’t stand up or walk without a walker make her way to the altar. The pastor laid hands on her as he prayed with authority. In a matter of moments I watched her break out into dancing and jumping around, never touching that walker again!! God had used that pastor as a vessel to heal that woman. It is a responsibility that should never be taken lightly. The bible says EVERY believer has the ability to lay hands on the sick and that person shall be healed.

Mark 16:17-18 AMP – 17 These signs will accompany those who have believed: In My name they will cast out demons, they will speak in new tongues; 18 they will pick up serpents, and if they drink anything deadly, it will not hurt them; they will lay hands on the sick, and they will get well.

I have seen this scripture come to life so many times and hope I never get numb to it. I serve a mighty God!!

It wasn’t but a year later when I really witnessed how God spoke through dreams and visions. I met this amazing woman who volunteered to come in and pray for people via phone calls. We became fast friends as I listened to her pray for others and watched God use her. I was working long hours during that time and wouldn’t leave the church until 8pm on Tuesdays and Fridays. On those nights after she finished making calls we would stay after and talk. We would pray for each other and she would tell me about the dreams God was giving her. Talk about pin point precision! Some of these dreams were about people in the church and I would watch things play out just as she describe the events only weeks before. I learned a great deal from her. I felt so honored that God would allow me to be surrounded with people like her every day.

It was that same friend who told me to keep a journal and write down everything I see God do not only in my life but in others as well. Write down what God says along with the date. Write down every dream. I did for a while but when you are overworked and trying to be everything to everyone things begin to fall by the wayside though today I am diligent about this practice.

The weeks turned into months, the months into seasons, the seasons into years. I was trying to balance my job at the church, schooling, being a mom, taking care of my dogs and cats, exercising and riding my horse, supporting my husband and 7 businesses. Honestly, I felt like I was sucking at all of my responsibilities. So, I began praying and getting up at 4am to read my bible when there were no other distractions. My dad and Shaun wanted to get baptized on the weekend of Yom Kippur of 2024. The holiest day of the year on the Jewish calendar. For Shaun especially, this was a big deal. Luckily I had a great boss at the time who fully supported my getting baptized along with my family on the busiest work day of my week.

Things got really heavy the week leading up to Yom Kippur (Day of Atonement). Things will always happen in the workplace that you don’t agree with. It happens literally EVERYWHERE! My heart was broken and had been for a couple weeks. At one point I got so mad that I prayed in the name of Jesus move my mountain!! I went on a strict fast and was on a liquids only fast when, for the second time, I got baptized alongside my husband and my dad.

Looking back on that time I realize how far I’ve come in the last 6 months. One day I will share how I heard God’s voice and I misunderstood what he told me. The Holy Spirit convicted me in the middle of a conversation with a co-worker to put me in the right direction. Today I will tell you this: God had to take me out of chaos in order to bring me in. I gave my entire heart and soul to serving God’s people that I came to him with an empty cup. You can’t give from an empty cup. God didn’t take me out of a bad place. It’s because I loved that place and the people so much that God moved me to get through to me. I  certainly didn’t leave for reasons that have been shared in a podcast or gossiped about by others. It wasn’t even for a reason I suspected. God hasn’t permitted me to share that information.

During this time, the Holy Spirit has put it on my heart to study the word. He has used other pastors and friends I have met along the way to confirm the path I’m on. The resources the Holy Spirit has guided me to is fueling dreams and visions from God. ALL dreams are from God and can only be truly interpreted by God. I want to make that clear. What the Holy Spirit has done for me is encouraged me to seek out the meaning of my dreams by prayer, understanding the meaning of symbols and cross-referencing the meaning with scripture. In other words, the meaning of a symbol in one dream may now carry the same meaning in another dream two days later. The more I study, the more dreams I have. The more familiar I get with scripture and symbology the longer and more intense the dreams become.

I am praying on it but I suspect in the coming weeks the Holy Spirit is going to push me to share some of my dreams in this blog. I’m not real excited about that idea but I also wasn’t excited about starting this blog yet hear I am…so…haha. I would much rather share how God has moved in other peoples’ lives and how they have inspired me. There are so many!!

If you are interested in better understanding your dreams I will list the books below to assist you while also looking to the Bible and praying for clarity. You can purchase them thru Amazon (I get nothing in return for recommending these books). God is the creator of all things and therefore, is the only true interpreter. God bless you as you lean in closer Him!

 

The Divinity Code to Understanding Your Dreams and Visions

By Adam F. Thompson & Adrian Beale

Illustrated Dictionary of Dreams Symbols; A Biblical Guide to Your Dreams and Visions

By Dr. Joe Ibojie

 

Numbers That Prophesy; Hearing God through Historic Headlines and Numbers That Preach

By Troy A. Brewer

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